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Azizi Zailani

SurrealAndReality

SurrealAndReality

Hmm About Me... If There Was A Word Which Defines Me I Guess It Would Be "Different". =) In My Blog I'm Just A Guy Who Writes Words Which Streams In My Head Like A River Flowing Into A Path Of Unseen Beauty Which Are Usually Poetry Of My Soul Or Feelings. I Am New At Writing Poems And I Agree That Some Of My Poetry Is Not That Great... But I Try.

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Essences of the past.
Conclusions?
Laughter, Because everyone needs it.
Ticking...
Life is so dull.
Wait for me~ Soul&Resolution...
Lost, Time And Space?
It's been a while...
Randomness
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Saturday, October 8, 2011
Essences of the past.

Escape

Looking For A Great Escape

Away From This Sad Journey

My Destiny Is Losing Shape

Trap Inside Like A Felony

I Feel I'm About To Break

Deep In Trance And Slumber

I'm Screaming Just To Wake

Waiting For The Next Number

When My Turn Comes And Go

This Heart Of Mine Will Slow

Where I Start To Disappear

Peace Will Go Wherever I Flow



Riddle

Sitting, Thinking, Wondering About Death

Sitting Pondering Sickness Of My Health

Thinking All The Things In The Aftermath

Wondering When I'll Have My Last Breath

Watching, Losing, Wanting About Death

Watching The World Without Any Wealth

Losing Hope Seeing All This Aftermath

Wanting So Much For My Last Breath



Hidden

Buried In The Sand Of Time

Beyond The Large Endless Sea

A Heart That I Only Once Felt

Shattered To A Million Pieces

All Is Lost In This Mad World

Covered By Shadows Of Darkness

A Never Ending Twirl Of Sadness

Where All My Meaning Seems Lost

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Friday, September 23, 2011
Conclusions?

Hello there, seems kinda cheesy to start off like this. Haha But then again what is the correct way to post something on a blog. Anyways on a different matter, I often ponder about my very existent in life, for example the common question usually asked is, What's my purpose, Why am I here. People usually brush these questions in life and go on with their lives with their own mindsets. But for me, It's as if It's a goal I have to achieve, to gain more knowledge, to better understand myself then only I presume will be able to understand the world I am in. Often in life I experience challenges that leave me breathless suffocating like the weight of the universe is on me or leaving me feeling like I'm drowning in quicksand draining the life out of me and in the end I've always stood up against these obstacles with a smirk on my face knowing I'm still here standing, still breathing. Being alone after all these years in the dark, I've come to realize I'm not afraid. I would rather embrace this darkness, for when I'm in the dark, It's true you can't see but your imagination can run free, there is no space which binds the mind, after all, darkness is just empty space. I've learn to be more open minded, appreciative of the things I have and not let the deadly sins get the best of me. In a way, It's a simple life that is in pursuit of happiness. Along the way I might sacrifice my own happiness for others if their worth it and It doesn't bother me that much If I can never achieve happiness because as long as I'm still here, I'm not the type of person that will easily give up anymore. Ill fight for whats right till the last breath and on this conclusion I have given myself, I think ill be fine.

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Thursday, September 15, 2011
Laughter, Because everyone needs it.

I know I haven't posted in a while, I've been busy trying to manage my time. I haven't wrote anything or any poetry to post, Maybe next time when I'm free. So far in life, my life, there are ups and downs, but that is never gonna bring me down. As long as I'm still here standing, that itself gives me meaning, A reason to live. So currently I'm still sticking to my bad habit of smoking. Hopefully I will quit by this year and if I don't, I can always try again, Nothing is never too late. I'm still going to gym as well although I have miss a few weeks of gym due to some events, therefore I have just started again this week and will stick by it for the moment. Oh, and on the last post I talked about being accepted to college which is a bit stressful. After starting college, It was quite fine until we were merge with another group of students which made us have to study all over again, meaning all the assignments and work given was such a waste but I don't mind. What really bothers me is one Lecturer who has been against me from the start of college, lets just call him/her "Bitch". So this "Bitch" has always tried to look superior and right all the time even when he/she is wrong. I'm quite annoyed of his/her stupid attitude, he/she is messing with the wrong student. If this "Bitch's" intention was to make me angry during her class to over react and get expelled from college, Then I'll just have to play cool and file a letter of complaint instead about her attitude towards the students. I mean, come on, If a lecturer complains about waking up early and not having breakfast just to be a few minutes early, then why be a lecturer. If you can't do the work, just simply quit and not take it out on the students. He/she always promises a lot of things and still manage to fuck up the promises at the last minute, always taking about trust, but where is the trust there? I'm not a kid, I can read right through that "Bitch". By the way, It's not just me who is complaining about the "Bitch", So it's not personal. Other lecturer seems to be alright and friendly except for the "Bitch". Well enough of the "Bitch", other than that, I quite enjoy college and nothing comes important than my studies except for family. On a different note, My younger brother found his iphone 4 which he lost a couple of weeks back. Seems it was in the hands of some gay guy from his school whom seems to have a silly explanation on how the gay dude found the phone. Just glad he got it back, to top that of. My younger brother just got his license, congratulations to him, Quite happy that I don't have to be his driver anymore. Anyways, heres a neat video that I got from a friend that I would like to share. Peace :) Click the link below.



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Thursday, June 9, 2011
Ticking...

Hmm, It has been quite some time since I blog something.
Been busy with gym, Have been going for about 2 months and a few weeks now.
New hobby I guess. Haha But It has been great, I feel much healthier than before
although It seems I didn't quit smoking, Back to smoking after quitting for a month.
Hehe, Can't really blame me, Where ever I go, There is always someone puffing making
me feel like having the urge to have one myself. Haha, I guess gym balance my bad habit.
Quite a few things going on too other than gym, I got accepted in Cosmopolitan School,
So things might get a bit hectic once that starts around this month. Will Be studying IT there.
This past few months has been good for me, I hope it stays that way. ^^

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Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Life is so dull.

So it has been about a month since my last stick and I feel great although I do still feel the urge to go down the street and get myself a pack of ciggys. Haha Oh how I miss them, the poison in my lungs, the feeling of a few satisfying puffs. But somehow I gladly quit and one month doesn't really seem like an accomplishment. It's funny that ever since I quit, I have been having vivid dreams of smoking in my dreams, seems so surreal. Well enough about me, Enjoy. ^^

Perspective
There’s So Many Beautiful Things
Oh What Joy They Usually Bring
When The Whole World Sings
How Lovely It Is To Be In Spring
Watching The Birds With Wings
A Stunning Scene Fit For A King…

Courage
All The Hope Has Run Away
For Our Sake Let Us All Try To Pray
When Your World Seems To Turn Grey
Do Not Walk Alone In Darkness And Stray
Fight With All Your Might And Courage To Stay
May Your Pain And Sickness Be Delayed
Remember How We Danced & Played
Having Fun Almost Each Day
Wishing For You To Be Ok

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Thursday, January 6, 2011
Wait for me~ Soul&Resolution...

Just a few things I wrote before the new year start but didn't have time to post. Well I haven't been feeling well due to some circumstances, Quit smoking on the last few minutes of new year eve on the beach which I thought was appropriate and dramatic for a new beginning...

Resolution

Last Few Hours Of New Years Eve

It's Kinda Really Hard To Believe

That There Wasn’t So Much I Achieved

But I'm Ready To Forget All Grieves

Not Much Time Preparing To Leave

For A New Day Is About To Weave

From This Beginning I Am Relieved…

Soul

I'm Feeling Lost In Time And Space

Dissapearing Without A Single Trace

Like All My Personality Is Being Erased

Going Through This Randomness Chase

As I Am Running Through A Long Race

Agaisnt All The Odds On My Own Pace

Before All My Thoughts Are Replaced…


So what is your new years resolution?

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Sunday, November 14, 2010
Lost, Time And Space?

I might not be writing for a while, poetry in a few days or so on, I have my last exam this month. Gotta study, Finally driving after few weeks after my car crashed... I think it went well, with a slight worry of passing cars...

I'm not really sure what to say, I feel lost and used most of the time for other people's advantages. I don't understand myself most of the time. Feels like I have lost my sanity quite a long time ago. An empty shell without a purpose. Ever felt like your trap in space, without anyone lending a hand to drag you back to Earth, to be in a place where the sun doesn't shine and swallows you with darkness. Well I feel like that most of my life, To me happiness is somewhat artificial, Something that isn't real like a drug to make you high. Happiness is limited, sadness is everywhere. They say good people always get good things but I think that statement is false. For the people around the world, some with little sins than the common man suffer, you have to wonder why... All my life I've tried to search for myself, an image pure from harm in my mind. In my darkest days I try to find god, for no one will lend an ear to listen and during in this sadness, I tend to laugh for I fear god himself has forsaken me... I fear I have yet to find someone who truly understands.

Does it make me sane knowing that I'm going insane?

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