Hmm About Me... If There Was A Word Which Defines Me I Guess It Would Be "Different".
=) In My Blog I'm Just A Guy Who Writes Words Which Streams In My Head Like A River Flowing Into A Path Of Unseen Beauty Which Are Usually Poetry Of My Soul Or Feelings.
I Am New At Writing Poems And I Agree That Some Of My Poetry Is Not That Great... But I Try.
Hello there, seems kinda cheesy to start off like this. Haha But then again what is the correct way to post something on a blog. Anyways on a different matter, I often ponder about my very existent in life, for example the common question usually asked is, What's my purpose, Why am I here. People usually brush these questions in life and go on with their lives with their own mindsets. But for me, It's as if It's a goal I have to achieve, to gain more knowledge, to better understand myself then only I presume will be able to understand the world I am in. Often in life I experience challenges that leave me breathless suffocating like the weight of the universe is on me or leaving me feeling like I'm drowning in quicksand draining the life out of me and in the end I've always stood up against these obstacles with a smirk on my face knowing I'm still here standing, still breathing. Being alone after all these years in the dark, I've come to realize I'm not afraid. I would rather embrace this darkness, for when I'm in the dark, It's true you can't see but your imagination can run free, there is no space which binds the mind, after all, darkness is just empty space. I've learn to be more open minded, appreciative of the things I have and not let the deadly sins get the best of me. In a way, It's a simple life that is in pursuit of happiness. Along the way I might sacrifice my own happiness for others if their worth it and It doesn't bother me that much If I can never achieve happiness because as long as I'm still here, I'm not the type of person that will easily give up anymore. Ill fight for whats right till the last breath and on this conclusion I have given myself, I think ill be fine.
I know I haven't posted in a while, I've been busy trying to manage my time. I haven't wrote anything or any poetry to post, Maybe next time when I'm free. So far in life, my life, there are ups and downs, but that is never gonna bring me down. As long as I'm still here standing, that itself gives me meaning, A reason to live. So currently I'm still sticking to my bad habit of smoking. Hopefully I will quit by this year and if I don't, I can always try again, Nothing is never too late. I'm still going to gym as well although I have miss a few weeks of gym due to some events, therefore I have just started again this week and will stick by it for the moment. Oh, and on the last post I talked about being accepted to college which is a bit stressful. After starting college, It was quite fine until we were merge with another group of students which made us have to study all over again, meaning all the assignments and work given was such a waste but I don't mind. What really bothers me is one Lecturer who has been against me from the start of college, lets just call him/her "Bitch". So this "Bitch" has always tried to look superior and right all the time even when he/she is wrong. I'm quite annoyed of his/her stupid attitude, he/she is messing with the wrong student. If this "Bitch's" intention was to make me angry during her class to over react and get expelled from college, Then I'll just have to play cool and file a letter of complaint instead about her attitude towards the students. I mean, come on, If a lecturer complains about waking up early and not having breakfast just to be a few minutes early, then why be a lecturer. If you can't do the work, just simply quit and not take it out on the students. He/she always promises a lot of things and still manage to fuck up the promises at the last minute, always taking about trust, but where is the trust there? I'm not a kid, I can read right through that "Bitch". By the way, It's not just me who is complaining about the "Bitch", So it's not personal. Other lecturer seems to be alright and friendly except for the "Bitch". Well enough of the "Bitch", other than that, I quite enjoy college and nothing comes important than my studies except for family. On a different note, My younger brother found his iphone 4 which he lost a couple of weeks back. Seems it was in the hands of some gay guy from his school whom seems to have a silly explanation on how the gay dude found the phone. Just glad he got it back, to top that of. My younger brother just got his license, congratulations to him, Quite happy that I don't have to be his driver anymore. Anyways, heres a neat video that I got from a friend that I would like to share. Peace :) Click the link below.
So it has been about a month since my last stick and I feel great although I do still feel the urge to go down the street and get myself a pack of ciggys. Haha Oh how I miss them, the poison in my lungs, the feeling of a few satisfying puffs. But somehow I gladly quit and one month doesn't really seem like an accomplishment. It's funny that ever since I quit, I have been having vivid dreams of smoking in my dreams, seems so surreal. Well enough about me, Enjoy. ^^
Perspective There’s So Many Beautiful Things Oh What Joy They Usually Bring When The Whole World Sings How Lovely It Is To Be In Spring Watching The Birds With Wings A Stunning Scene Fit For A King…
Courage
All The Hope Has Run Away For Our Sake Let Us All Try To Pray When Your World Seems To Turn Grey Do Not Walk Alone In Darkness And Stray Fight With All Your Might And Courage To Stay May Your Pain And Sickness Be Delayed Remember How We Danced & Played Having Fun Almost Each Day Wishing For You To Be Ok
Just a few things I wrote before the new year start but didn't have time to post. Well I haven't been feeling well due to some circumstances, Quit smoking on the last few minutes of new year eve on the beach which I thought was appropriate and dramatic for a new beginning...
I might not be writing for a while, poetry in a few days or so on, I have my last exam this month. Gotta study, Finally driving after few weeks after my car crashed... I think it went well, with a slight worry of passing cars...
I'm not really sure what to say, I feel lost and used most of the time for other people's advantages. I don't understand myself most of the time. Feels like I have lost my sanity quite a long time ago. An empty shell without a purpose. Ever felt like your trap in space, without anyone lending a hand to drag you back to Earth, to be in a place where the sun doesn't shine and swallows you with darkness. Well I feel like that most of my life, To me happiness is somewhat artificial, Something that isn't real like a drug to make you high. Happiness is limited, sadness is everywhere. They say good people always get good things but I think that statement is false. For the people around the world, some with little sins than the common man suffer, you have to wonder why... All my life I've tried to search for myself, an image pure from harm in my mind. In my darkest days I try to find god, for no one will lend an ear to listen and during in this sadness, I tend to laugh for I fear god himself has forsaken me... I fear I have yet to find someone who truly understands.
Does it make me sane knowing that I'm going insane?
So it has been a while since I wrote anything regrading poetry. I think a few months now, not quite sure but hope you enjoy these ones...
Replay I Feel As If I'm Fading Away With Life With So Many Cliche This Is The Darkest Of My Days My Sunny Happiness Is On Delay Not A Slight Smile On Display As This Journey Turns To Grey Maybe I'm Just Not Feeling Ok Like Time Always Seem To Replay Walking Alone An Empty Walkway...
Dad I'm Really Sick Of This Life All The Truth Covered By Lies Wither As Time Passes Nearby Two Fathers As The Same Guy Maybe It Is Time For Goodbyes Because It's Not Worth To Cry Never Did Hold Both So Dearly There Is Nothing Much To Deny Don't Ever Even Bother To Try Let Us Break Our Family Ties...
I Think I Am Going Crazy
Don't You All Seem To Agree?
It's Because I’m Always Angry
Everything Ache Inside My Body
This Empty Feeling Is Eating Me
Things Just Seems So Dark And Cloudy
The Evil Inside Me Is Very Deadly
Nothing Ever Seems So Easy
This Feeling Of Never Being Free
It Is Just So Fucking Freaky
That I Am Always Feeling Guilty
My Life Is Full Of Surprising Dramas
As If It Is Like A Illogical Movie
As I Take My Time To Look The Sea
The View Itself Is Forever Stormy
Never Seeing The Sun Being Sunny
All That I Know, Eternity Turns Ugly
Curse To Permanently Be So Moody
I Guess I Was Born To Be Unlucky…
Disorder
There Was A Monster Hiding Under My Bed
I Thought It was All In My Corrupted Head
It Was The Demon Devil Himself In Red
As Everything Turn Into A Gory Bloodshed
I Tried To Jump Out As I Tried To Fled
But Now I Can't Escape This Crazy Deathbed
Looking And Searching For An Escape Ahead
Then I Realize It Was Some Crazy Book That I Read
Someone To Call Dad A Forgotten Comrade Things Just Got Sad Now I'm Feeling Mad One By One They Left As If Its A Big Big Fad From When I Was A Tad Now I'm Grownup, A Lad I Feel Just Like A Nomad Leaving Me But I'm Glad…
